- I've known I had some kind of anxiety issue for awhile, but I felt like it was more like there was something wrong with who I am rather than an affliction placed upon me. It's a huge comfort to read that so many other people are having similar issues regarding paranoia and how everyone else seems to have the same techniques as me to basically hide in plain sight. To pretend like you're not there. I talked to a doctor about it and am still trying out different medications to see what works. Within the past week I started reading the articles here and looking at the self-help videos, and it feels like they have helped me identify my problem. Now that I KNOW it's SAD and not something wrong with who I am as a person, it feels like I can handle it.
- —Guest John
I dont want to tell anyone
- I just realized that I have (SAD) and I'm only 13. I don't want to tell anyone especially my parents I'm afraid that they will say that that's not what I have and that I'm fine but I know I'm not. Ever since I was little I didn't want to talk to people because I feared that I would say something wrong and they would judge me for what I said, about a year ago I just didn't want to go anywhere I felt like nothing. I have been suffering with depression since I was about 8 years old. People are starting to realize that something is wrong and when they ask I say I'm fine. I want to tell people that I have this disorder but at the same time I don't want anyone to know. I am afraid that they will think that I'm weird and messed up because I have a disorder I just don't know what to do anymore, I need help:(
- —Guest Guest
I feel stupid!
- I always feel that people are intimidated by me that's why they don't like me!! Or i get so embarrassed because my neighbors always hear me shouting at my kids.. I'm always afraid of what people may think or say...even at work I don't sit in one table with my co-workers because I am afraid that they wont talk to me. But deep inside I am so lonely that I'm longing for friends.. they just don't know who am I for real! Some of my older friends they basically know me.. but I think some are intimidated of me they find me so straight forward and miss know it all... but deep inside all I wanted to do is to get along with them well.
- I honestly thought I couldn't speak to my best guy friends because I thought I was gay, so I started studying ways I could show I wasn't gay and that just made everything worse made my anxiety a lot worse, but then I realized, I don't give a sh*t what people have to say, I learned I don't have to converse with everyone or anyone to feel good wherever I'm trying to hold my own, I remember when I would stink up the room for being so uncomfortable about myself, but now I can talk to women without sweating, sometimes I will just break and have a random attack of anxiety, but I'll remember I don't have to impress anyone, no matter how big, good looking or, intimidating they might be, I learned to hold it for my own ;) and that's just the way it is.
- —Guest Tom
- I didn't start to feel this anxiety until about grade ten, and that summer I didn't get out of the house once, too addicted to video games, but then I started to get really shy, then I lost almost all my friends, and I only truly speak to about three people, and anxiety really kicked in when I got high, I never really wanted to become a pot head, I think that's why this one time I passed out from the anxiety when I was high, but I got over my paranoia to speak to people by getting stoned everyday, I kinda learned to control it, but sometimes I'll just get one of those shitty highs. I'm stuck in this loop thinking if I will have a normal life again, but I'm pretty happy where I Stand. It only pisses me off more when people ask me what's wrong when I don't speak, but they don't understand I'm just trying to deal with that fact I don't fit in.
- —Guest Tim
is it me?
- I'm a Leo, I'm usually outgoing but only with people who I am close with. If I am in say a meeting with 5+ people, I cannot speak, I don't like when they look at me or ask for my opinions. I tend to just shy away, shut down and don't get me started on eye contact! I despise making eye contact for prolonged periods... it's so bad that when I am speaking, I tend to look away and if I happen to look at whom I'm speaking with, I stutter and forget what I'm saying... I have hearing loss so I'm sure my Social anxiety comes from being unable to make out what people are saying. Therefore holding a conversation is one thing that is rare for myself.. I tend to drift off and a lot of people see me as standoffish or rude because of this. I am blessed to have the people around me who understand. There's only a handful but it's nice to have people who don't take it the wrong way.
- —Guest yami
Am I paranoid?
- I feel so out of place. Like there is nowhere for me to go... I keep seeing people whispering and staring at me, so I assume then are whispering about me. I spoke to my teacher about it, and she said I may just be paranoid. That didn't help. I don't know what to believe anymore. I keep worrying about what people think about me too. I'm not crazy, thinking the world is going to explode, but I keep getting these sudden thoughts. No one really cares I guess. My mum and dad do, but I haven't been telling them about my emotional feelings. I feel so alone. I just wish I had a friend to talk to.
- —Guest Becky
I feel you
- I have social anxiety also. Lately I been feeling people are out to get me.. it's weird, I'll be at the gym and if some one just looks at me or if some one looks scary. It triggers fearful thoughts that they are out to get me :( its really sad. I can't make friends or connect with people.
- —Guest anti-social
my teacher knew before anyone else
- The beginning of sophmore year, one of my teachers insisted I play her ice breaker games. I had a panic attack. I'm shy and introverted. Due to a traumatic experience, I cant be by men without panic attacks, flashbacks and other horrible stuff. Needless to say my teacher recognized the signs of SAD. She pulled me aside and talked to me. I was glad I could put a name to my problems but my parents were in denial. They didn't think their baby girl could ever have anything wrong with her. After much convincing, my parents took me to get it checked. They put me on medications. I was so stressed I lost 15 pounds. I've always been underweight so this horrified me. When I finally got off the medications, I lost 5 more pounds. I will never be normal. I can accept that. But it sucks that I cant go on dates and hang out with girlfriends.
- I am 14 years old and I recently realized I have Social anxiety. I lived in one City almost my entire life, which was Arizona, from the time I was 2 to the time I was 10. Than out of nowhere the company my father worked for decided to move the bussiness to Texas, I was completely devastated. I mean I had moved schools and houses before but I have never moved out of the state. I didn't know what to expect, I had TONS of friends here in Arizona, I wasn't shy at all. We moved to a small town in Texas and when I attended school it was the most horrific time of my life. I was alone, isolated and I spent two years of my life at that school, and I said less than 10 words. My confidence? I had none. I was bullied, and completely ignored. I dreaded recess cause that only meant i'd be alone, talking to myself on the swings for 30 min. The pain of rejection never went away, and to this day, as a freshman in high school, it STILL affects me. And nobody seems to understand, nobody..
- —Guest Vanessa.
Living Like This
- Hello, I am 27 and I am sometimes crippled with similar experiences to others. I get panicky when I leave the house if I do go out I am looking down at the floor and seldom give people eye-contact. If I'm out in a social setting for example a work function, I find myself drinking booze like a fish trying to give my self confidence, so when people at work see me on a night out they think I am Mr. Confident and they don't see my brain working overtime analyzing "why she said that" what's he looking at me like that for". It's got to the point where I am only leaving the house for work and rushing back home asap.
- —Guest uklad
- Ya know, after reading these, it has really been comforting. I even teared up a little. I know and can understand where you guys are coming from. I suffer from anxiety and its a bitch to live with. I am often afraid of what are thinking about me and how I will be perceives. I over analyze my hellos and goodbyes, and everything in between. Its no way to live life. I am a happy, easy going girl with unelivable potential. I refuse to let this horrendous disorder ruin my life. I know we can all get through what we have, and accept it for what it is: a pain in the ass. Its inevitable so I think working with it, and finding positive ways to deal will only gives us strength! :) good luck
- —Guest Survivor
- Ever since I was 5 years old I knew I wasn't like the rest of the kids I was really shy. I have been through a lot in my life with abuse at home also bullying at school because I was suffering from anorexia and I was called ugly. I'm now 31 it's hard for me to go out in public people staring at me. I feel so alone I feel like no one in my family understand me I cry all the time.
- —Guest michelle
I'm tired of this
- I'm 13 years old and not to be arrogant or something but I'm kinda the popular kid at my school but even though I'm with the popular kids I always feel they don't really like me, I feel so unwanted and like if they go somewhere without me I always think they will talk about me and I'm over think that a lot,I also feel very sad and scared if they hangout and didn't ask me to come. I always think before I talk but I feel like I always did something wrong even though I don't know what is it. I talk about this to some of my friends but then I think they don't really care about it. I'm really tired of always thinking this way.
- —Guest mei
You Are Not alone
- I have had this issue since I was about 13 years of age, although at that time I didn't know what it was and I thought I was losing my mind back then too. I am now 40 years of age and although I still have issues with it even my husband tries to find ways to deal with me when I have those moments, I try to remember what I had learned over the years that seemed to help me. I am on an anti anxiety medicine called hydroxizine and I find music helpful as well as doing something constructive like arts and craft projects. As far as worrying about what others are thinking of me, I remind myself that most of the time others are just simply going about thier days/nights and may not even notice that I am even around, so that helps me with that part of it. I hope that my own expieriences with this will help someone.